broke but not broken.

moving takes a lot out of your wallet. I haven't been this broke since.. forever. and it's a sad and scary feeling. all of this just reminds me of how important a degree is, though a lot of my graduate friends have reassured me that a degree doesn't mean much these days.

on a brighter note, the new place is a great change. it's so quiet, you get to hear the frogs croak at night and the birds mate in the morning. the new noises took some getting used to but it wasn't long before I began sleeping like a baby again. the view from our patio is stunning and I like taking time to sit out there and reflect on life.

probably a week into living at the new place I became overwhelmed with loneliness and nostalgia. it hit me suddenly how far I was from family and friends and how broke and lonely I was. I really don't know anyone in this area besides zac and co-workers and I think my mind and heart were just taking in the changes at different times. so I decided to go see my family this past Saturday and it did a lot for me. it was like a sigh of relief and a great feeling of comfort and just knowing that they are there makes a difference. growing up sucks and accepting that change is inevitable in a growing world is hard. I'm still taking it all in but ultimately I know I am where I belong. that where I'm going is where I'm supposed to be.