old school.

i've been learning a lot about myself since going back to school. i'm amazed that at 26, there is still so much more about me that goes undiscovered. a lot of times i get frustrated with myself because i can't seem to figure out who i am, who i want to be, and what i want to become. it seems like the people around me have figured it all out and are on their journey to accomplish their dreams. me, on the other hand, i'm still waiting and putting the pieces of the puzzle together. i can't decide if i'm just a late bloomer or if i'm going backwards and retracing my steps. there is also the possibility that self-discovery is just an ongoing process and that instead of overthinking it like i do, i should just simply enjoy this fact of life.

since i take night classes, i'm often surrounded by working parents, or adults who, like me, have decided to go back to school and make a career change. i'm humbled by their experieneces and all they have to offer to the classroom. it's also reassuring to see that i am not the only one struggling to make a better life in this cruel and unforgiving world. besides getting to know myself more, school is a great place to socialize. i've met so many different people from all walks of life who have been surprisingly open in sharing their stories with me. it's interesting to say the least and i'm grateful to take part in it.

schoolwork can be overbearing but i enjoy pushing myself. i've made it a personal goal to get straight A's throughout my college career and so far i've been successful. even though i'm only attending school part-time, it's been a real struggle balancing what goes on in between. there's work, emi, household chores, bills, zac, and myself. there just doesn't seem to be enough time in the day and i've realized that time management is everything. i recently learned in my sociology class that the major stressor in the average american household is time, or lack thereof. it's pretty sad and unfortunately, i find myself being a part of that statistic.

i still have to convince myself from time to time that i'm still young and have a lot to accomplish in life and that i shouldn't be so caught up in the daily grind. it takes a lot of convincing but at the end of the day, i have a bed to sleep on and a life to return to the next day - no matter how vigorous it may be.