we've had a consistent drumming of rain since monday and a major downpour this morning. i get so mesmerized by the raindrops on my office window - the way they slide down have always reminded me of tadpoles swimming downstream. the rain has a calming effect on me so i always look forward to it even though i must admit that driving in the rain is a nightmare in california. the minute a raindrop hits the windshield, all hell breaks loose - people begin panicking and all the brake lights come on, it gets pretty ridiculous. it's times like those that i consider ditching life behind the wheel and tranporting myself other ways that don't involve a rise in blood pressure and a shouting of curse words that i surprise myself of knowing. yes, my road rage gets that bad and unfortunately, it's only gotten worse over the years. i really have to step out of myself sometimes and remind myself to breathe. just.. breathe..
on a brighter note, the week is almost over and i don't have class tomorrow. people at work are always asking how i'm able to juggle working full-time with night school and to be honest, i've no idea. it might be a mixture of me still being young (no matter how old i complain i'm getting), challenging myself, my will power, and the support system i have cheering me on. i won't lie though, it gets really overwhelming. there's not an hour that doesn't go by that i'm not thinking about work or school - it wears me down, but i will not rest until i have accomplished what i've set out to do. be the change you want to see, right? .... right
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