it wasn't as busy of a weekend as i thought it would be. it partly might have had something to do with me needing the entire day on sunday to recover from a vicious hangover from the night before. what exactly was i thinking when downing back to back glasses of crown royal on the rocks? i mean, seriously? not only did z have the honor of holding my hair back as i puked away my intestines but apparently i was verbally abusive towards him on the way home. i guess during a drunken emotional breakdown i told him some very hurtful things that had him convinced i was leaving him forever. the next morning, he asked me if i was still thinking of moving out but i had no idea was he was talking about.. and to be honest, every time i tried recollecting the night, a pounding headache told me not to even try. after 3 bottles of water and ibuprofen, i finally managed to gather myself enough to reassure him that i loved him and had no idea what i said because i was... well, wasted. he wasn't too happy with that excuse and i can't blame him because had it been the other way around, i may have not been so forgiving. to make it up to him, i retreated one of his birthday presents from the closet and gave it to him a day early. it was the least i could do. he was still hurt but i could tell the gift made him feel a little better. i know you may be thinking what a mean brute of a girlfriend i am and it's true - i don't deserve him sometimes...
fortunately, i had managed to fully recover by yesterday and all was forgiven and hopefully, forgotten. z's dad came back up from john's place and had breakfast with us at mimi's where we enjoyed our favorite breakfast burrito. it was so great having the day off from work and enjoying the beautiful weather. we took emi to the park and on a walk around the neighborhood. i had to separate myself from them for a while in order to get some school work done. i decided to skip my monday night class in order to make z's last minute birthday dinner with his family. again, it was the least i could do. being the bad girlfriend that i am, however, i forgot to bring the camera to take pictures of his special night. remind me again why he loves me?
anyhow, we've decided to make it a tradition and get both of our birthdays off from work (and i've personally made a promise to myself that there is to be no heavy drinking during these special moments). i have to admit though, being back in the office today was pretty brutal. i had a lot of work and e-mails to catch up on and somebody tell me why i didn't think to put my 'out of office' on? i've no idea where my mind has gone and am seriously convinced that i have just about lost it - if you happen to come across it, would you be so kind as to return it to me? because heaven knows i really need it.
thank you, xoxxx.
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