is thinking an addiction?

i spent the first few days of my winter break enjoying the absolute nothingness of my time. lately, however, i can't seem to stop not doing something. z's dad gave me 2 jigsaw puzzles for christmas and i already finished one. i finished a 500 piece jigsaw puzzle in 2 1/2 days. my favorite christmas gift is the amazon kindle, given to me by none other than z, who is responsible for nearly any and every electronic item i own. thanks to the kindle, i now know that i am 38% through my first kindle book (also z's doing), Eat, Pray, Love. i can't seem to put it down and my brain is absorbing it like a sponge. i'm finding that i constantly need to keep my mind active, whether it's doing a puzzle, reading, or simply thinking and applying things i've learned this past semester.

an example: our friend came over the other night and was wearing a beanie that had the words "NEW MONEY" boldly stitched on one side. i stared at those words and thought about my sociology class. i had just learned what new money vs old money was this past semester and i was freakishly excited to see the words "new money" outside of a classroom or textbook. i didn't want to ask our friend if he knew what the term on his beanie meant, partly because he probably did and partly because i didn't want to bore him with my newfound sociological knowledge. but man, my mind wouldn't stop moving. it started to take a toll of its own and i'm wondering if it's because it needs new wrinkles and cells, almost like how someone needs a cigarette.

i do know that i never want to stop learning. the fact that i'm doing it at my own pace now only encourages my urge to continue my education all the more. why not? what do i have to lose? it's what has motivated me to go for my masters, but most of all, it has pushed me through every semester and every class and no, my mind won't settle on getting B's, it wants A's. it wants to prove to the world that it has learned to its full capacity. Lord knows i've neglected it and have taken it for granted in the past, but i'm so proud of my little brain and i'm happy to congratulate it on another straight A semester. we did it, brain!

xxoxo