hi friends, it's been awhile.

i told you i was busier now than i used to be as a full-time grinder, right?

lately i've been feeling very much like a housewife. not to set women back or anything, but i don't see the harm in living this way. albeit i don't have kids, i have never been healthier, less stressed, and more at peace with myself than i have these past few weeks. i only wish that this could have happened sooner.

there are some things that i found happen during the day that i wasn't aware of before, but have now grown accustomed to. first, there is the hispanic cholo kid downstairs. every morning, his little gang of friends come over and they blast westside gangster rap until they are ready to go to "school". i put "school" in quotation marks because they're usually found hiding out somewhere around the complex. i sometimes spot them while i'm walking emi and last week, i even saw one of them getting handcuffed while another was being questioned by the cops. sometimes in the afternoons, they have girls over and play drinking games and alas, dr. dre comes back through the sound system and my windows. i don't really complain because at least it's during the day, when everyone is supposedly at work, and not at home trying to nap, like i am.

i also noticed that we have an impressive variety of birds here. you can usually hear them waking up and singing their hearts out at the break of dawn, but they're still very much at it during the day. today alone i saw a blue jay, a woodpecker, doves, robins, and crows (no surprise because they are always around). i enjoy watching them hunt and peck for food.. but i also like imagining what it would be like to be a bird. i'm so envious of their God given gift of flight, if only i had wings..

i've also come to know the schedule of our mail person, the garbage truck, UPS, the departure and arrival times of our neighbors, and the classes at four local 24 hour fitnesses. and this may sound a bit stalker-esque, but i found out where some of the apartment maintenance guys live - i wonder if they get to live here for free, or at least get some kind of discount? doesn't that, in a way, make them bound to live here for the rest of their lives? yes, these are the kind of things i ask myself these days.

today marks the 1st of June. summer will soon arrive and i'll be sitting in a classroom again. it will also be the first full month of being unemployed and thus, really understanding our budget and finances. it will be the beginning of testing waters and unforeseeable haps. i just hope that everything will work out in the end... and i have all the faith that it will.

hope you are all doing well. xox